Paradoxical Intention

by Balue

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Paradoxical Intention is the deliberate practice of a neurotic habit or thought, undertaken in order to identify and remove it.

Written/Recorded during the summer of 2012 in the Land of Enchantment.
This is headphone music...

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released September 6, 2012

All music written and recorded by eli thomas.
(except) "Tarzan Boy" Originally by Baltimora.
Some Lyrics on "Protector" taken from a poem by Dan Randlemon.
Track 1, "Bishop Fulton Sheen"
Track 12, Lopez - Morallis "Carl Jung"

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Track Name: Paradoxical Intention
There's something in the stillness
And in everything that moves
There's something in between us
Thats connecting me to you
So if I focus all my energy
On these things I can't control
It suddenly becomes so clear to me
Then I laugh and let them go

P A R A D O X I C A L I N T E N T I O N

I've been living in the library
I want to see if there's anybody like me
I've stumbling through the pages of old
I've been learning new things I was never told
I've been drifting all around the globe
I've been meeting people feeling my heart start to grow
I've been looking myself in the eyes
I've been thinking real hard about WHO, WHAT, & WHY?

P A R A D O X I C A L I N T E N T I O N
Track Name: Youth Waves
Youth I don't know what you are anymore
Youth I don't know what comes next or what's in store
Youth I just hope that you'll meet me down on the shore
Youth that was the place that you and I did adore

The waves are like opiates
Like ultimate pleasure
They hit my face like opiates
If I open it, what a treasure

Youth its so nice to see you again
Youth its so nice to be with you my friend
Youth its so nice to hug you tight
Youth its so nice to see you in my eyes
Youth I lost you...
Youth I found you...

The waves are like opiates
Like ultimate pleasure
They hit my face like opiates
If I open it, what a treasure

I don't ever want to grow up
I don't want to give up my drugs
Like movies, and music and traveling gets hard man

The waves are like opiates
Like ultimate pleasure
They hit my face like opiates
If I open it what a treasure
Track Name: Naked
I want to be the only naked person in the room
I do
I want to be completely exposed on the operating table
I do

Cuz I'm the only man in the world who has, has a body like this
And I'm the only man in the world who has, has a heart like this

You ought to be the only naked person in the room
Wont you?
You ought to be completely exposed on your mother's kitchen table
Wont you?

Cuz you're the only person in the world who has, has a body like that
And you're the only person in the world who has, has a heart like that

Don't lose your humanity
Don't take yourself so seriously
Empty Heroics and Low Comedy...

We are just creatures in a world that needs, needs to learn how to have fun
Its True...
Track Name: Protector
Joy is the only feeling that I will accept
And yours is the only smile that makes my heart melt
So lock me up inside the cage of your ribs
And never, never let me go again
I know that probably sounds a little crazy
but baby, baby your heart needs protecting...

I'm the protector of your heart

Pain is one of many of the monsters that i will deflect
Cuz' your tears are the only things that make me feel upset
And I'll collect those tears in mason jars
And use them to wash and scrub your heart
I know that probably sounds a little crazy
But baby, baby your heart needs refreshing...


I'm the protector of your heart

Baby those monsters are smart...
Don't worry I'm guarding your heart...
Track Name: Scaly Eyes
Oh young man swim to the light
Oh young man gotta put up a fight

ooh la la la lullaby

Oh Young man get back on the trail
Oh young man quit casting those spells

Ooh la la la lullaby

You're alive, don't take that lightly
You're alive, stop trying to fight me

Oh young man you got a second chance
Oh young man turn your dreams into plans

Ooh la la la lullaby

Oh young man pull the scales off of your eyes
Oh young man gotta go start living life

You're alive, don't take that lightly
You're alive, stop trying to fight me

Ooh la la la lullaby
Track Name: On Being Lazy
It takes a special kind of man to be truly lazy
If you know what I'm saying the we've got the same vibes
What people don't understand about us that are truly lazy
Is that we're always really busy

Our Minds are always working
The cogs are turning
The coal is burning
So what if we aint got nothing to show for it?

I can't make up my mind I like different things all the time
But I'm just relaxing and taking it all in
I don't see the point in worrying, whatever happens, happens
I'm just relaxing and taking it all in

Our Minds are always working
The cogs are turning
The coal is burning
So what if we aint got nothing to show for it?

Yeah I'm lazy, whatever
Don't judge me, whatever

Our Minds are always working
The cogs are turning
The coal is burning
So what if we aint got nothing to show for it?
Track Name: Pool Honeys
Wendy Peffercorn
I loved you, so mature
Was always kissing the TV screen
Was always wishing I was living a dream

Going to the pool, seeing the Pool Honeys

Even if the sun tries to burn my skin
My insides would still be raw
Even if the moon tries to harm the sun
My precious eyes could still burn out

Going to the pool, seeing the Pool Honeys

I want a summer that I can believe in
I want a summer that aint got no rhyme or reason
I want a summer that knocks me down and gets me bleeding
I want a summer that I will remember when I’m dying...

Even if the sun tries to burn my skin
My insides would still be raw
Even if the moon tries to harm the sun
My precious eyes could still burn out

Going to the pool, seeing the Pool Honeys
Track Name: Fancy Things
Fancy things appeal to me but I know they don’t last
The simple life is so real to me but its all moving to fast
Oh I wish I was a river steady and on the move
Oh I wish I was a river slowly drifting towards the truth

But I’m just a human trapped in social norms
And I’m just a human drifting to conform

If all our wishes were horses you know them beggars would ride
If all our dreams came true then last night I would have died
Still I wish I was a river steady and on the move
Still I wish I was a river slowly drifting towards the truth

But I’m just a human trapped in social norms
And I’m just a human drifting to conform

I don’t think its fair to judge anybody like me
I’m only saying this because I don’t know what I believe
How can I make serious point? I’m wishy washy.
I don’t think its fair to judge anybody like me

Cuz I’m just a human trapped in social norms
And I’m just a human drifting to conform
And I wish I was a river, steady and on the move
And I wish I was a river slowly drifting towards the truth
Track Name: Richard
I miss my little brother
I missy the joy you bring
You are the funny parts
In all my favorite movies
And dude I don’t judge
You know I’ve been there too
Drowning in the emptiness
Thats deep inside of you

I know it’s scary when you feel the waves crash down
Flooding your brain with thoughts
But if you paddle and wade through he waters
You’re gonna find what you lost

And float back home...

Sometimes the truth hurts
But I’m digging in this dirt
And I don’t care about your past
I just want your life to last
And dude I don’t judge
You know I’ve been there too
Holding on to the nothingness
Thats surrounding you

I know it’s scary when you feel the waves crash down
Flooding your brain with thoughts
But if you paddle and wade through he waters
You’re gonna find what you lost

And float back home...
Track Name: Tropical Outlook
The sky is bright but my outlook is dark
I’ve got cold hands but I’ve got a warm heart
The water is clear it’s calling my name
I’ll dive right in and forget everything

Splish Splash, All day
I don’t care, I’m here to stay

My mind feels light the water is soothing
My body’s alright, man that aint no fooling
I’ll disappear in the ocean around me
Its all so clear, when I just float and be...

Splish Splash, All day
I don’t care, I’m here to stay

My outlook turned T R O P I C A L...
Splish Splash, All day
I don’t care, I’m here to stay
Track Name: Balloons
Accept the pieces of the puzzle
Thats the first step to truth
We become what we think we are
I never thought I’d be like you

Oh but I’m like the balloons
Floating high without a clue
My mind is up in the clouds
And it aint never coming down
But my body is glued to the couch
And my eyes are looking out for you

I think I understand now
Does that make me a man now?
I still don’t want to grow up
I don’t think I’ll ever give it up
My mind is always changing
My thoughts are rearranging
I treat life like a candy bowl
I take and take till its gone

Oh but I’m like the balloons
Floating high without a clue
My mind is up in the clouds
And it aint never coming down
But my body is glued to the couch
And my eyes are looking out for you

I’m like a balloon
Floating high without a clue
My mind is in the clouds
It aint never coming down
My body is glued to the couch
My eyes are looking out for you
Track Name: STDT
(Same Thought Different Tune) [end]

I want a summer that I can believe in
I want a summer that aint got no rhyme or reason

The sun may burn my skin
But my insides will still be raw

I want a summer that I can believe in
I want a summer that aint got no rhyme or reason
I want a summer that hits me hard and gets my heart beating
I want a summer that I will remember when I’m old and dying

The sun may burn my skin
But my insides will still be raw

Even thought the sun will burn my skin
My insides will still bee raw

I want a summer that I can believe in
I want a summer that aint got no rhyme or reason

The sun may burn my skin
But my insides will still be raw